Last night I wrote my post.
And shut my laptop.
This morning, it was as I remembered.
And so this week's word is meant on both levels.
The word I picked last night didn't sit right.
And this morning's phone call confirmed that.
The thing so many strive for.
And so we learn.
These were words I was pondering as my word of the week.
Because I am so trying to be a better person.
And yet there is a reality.
I cannot be all things to all people.
I spent two days this week on such a good course.
One of the learning points was the "sh*t sandwich".
Deliver a compliment. Reveal an area for improvement. Provide a positive recommendation.
In fairness, I think it works.
I am about to give up on people who simply tell me "it's sh*t", no explanation, and no recommendation.
Today, I talked to someone, about mental health, about helplessness and hopelessness.
And how and whether it is possible to return from an illness.
I felt helpless, I had no answers.
Apart from to ask how I can help.
But what use is that when there is no road map for the person to follow.
How does anyone know what help they need.
They just need help.
And when that help is so dependent on other outcomes.
And yes, it seems there is now a date in the diary.
The date, if there hadn't been a realisation before now, this is the date that everything is focused on.
And in the meantime there is everything else.
Realising confrontation is the only way forward.
Realising that you don't need to do this alone.
That you don't have to own everything.
Sometimes you just have to have faith.
It always is.
But I don't want collateral damage.
I just want, that those people who want and do make a difference to be appreciated.
That making a difference to others is the greatest priority.